Motherhood is tough.
It will stretch you to limits you didn't know existed and show
you the ugliness that's hidden inside that you
didn't think you were capable of hiding.
Yes, this week has been tough.
I'm not going to tell you that I yelled at my kids more times than I care to admit. I'm not going to tell you that I put on a movie for them so that I could have a moment of peace while I cleaned the bathroom. I'm not going to tell you that my girls had pretzels and apples for lunch. And I'm certainly not going to tell you that I actually just baked a chocolate cake because I was stressed.
No, I wouldn't tell you all that because I want you to think that I have this "motherhood" thing down pat, that my children are perfectly behaved and that I NEVER lose it.
But that's the problem.
We know inside that every mom goes through these seasons but far too often we want to put on this face that isn't really real. We don't want others to see the ugliness that's hidden inside and that we are sinners when really what we need is a friend to call that can encourage us and pray with us...
To refresh us.
It's not easy being transparent with someone but sometimes we just can't handle another day full of tears and whining. Another 6am waking just to find messes and markers. Another day trying to figure out how to discipline a child that's different from the other and doesn't seem to get it. Another day of figuring out how to nourish a 2 year olds soul and feeling like a failure. That's whats most important, right? But how to do it
and being faithful is a whole different ball park.
I was at the store recently and in the next isle over I could hear a newborn crying - really crying. As I walked past that isle I saw a young mom holding her new baby, bouncing it trying to get it quiet and shamefully looking around like she was embarrassed. My heart went out to her and I should have don't what my conscience told me to do - I should have gone up to her, told her she was doing a great job, that her crying baby wasn't bothering anyone and that this season would be passed before she knew it. I know that in those "mom moments" in my life,
that would have meant the world to me.
So often we wonder how to do this "parenting thing" and "am I doing this right?" We question ourselves and feel like failures judging ourselves based on our children. We can all say that we have those morning where we don't want to get out of bed.... just a few more hours to sleep and to be alone. But instead of feeling overwhelmed we need to run to Jesus. I need Jesus so much. Daily I need to examine my heart's attitude. I am the one who is being an example to my children all day long - do they see mommy as stressed, angry and complaining or full of joy, praise and pleasant? What they see, they will follow. We have something in our home that when the stress level rises and the girls are full of tears, we ask, "Can I see your happy face?" (to which they smile) When my 3 year old asks me that, I know that my attitude is not showing forth joy and that of Christ. One thing that definitely helps is taking the responsibility to nourish and refresh my soul daily so that I
can more faithfully do the same for my children.
It's a no wonder we can get so stressed when day in and out we have to constantly give of ourselves. But we can't forget to fill ourselves back up.... or else how can we give without losing it? So why don't you refresh your soul today.
Run to Jesus and find in Him your help and comfort. Find that grace to help you make it through another day. And while you are at it, encourage another mom out there who you think may be feeling overwhelmed with the season and ages she is training.
That's all for now.... I'm going to get off and enjoy my chocolate cake and soak up the last few moments of
this nap time to refresh my soul.